• The time I am playing carrom with the high tone music at the background.
• When I am playing cricket, it flourishes energy and refreshes mind.
• The time of listening to some best collection of Jagjit Singh which brings us in touch to reality of life.
• The visit to a mall leaves me amazed by looking into the collection of the available items.
• A short visit to a park to enjoy the natural beauty and the freakness of the kids.
• A big scoop of icecream cone and a stroll at night.
• A plate full of ripe fresh mangoes and obviously noone watching me.
• A ride in the rain and feeling the droplets of rain cherishing the life.
• A silent ride in train and simply watching the wonders of nature.
• A visit to a fare and bargaining for items, though never in a mood to purchase them actually.
• A packet of Parle biscuits and a cup of hot tea.
• Mealtime with all family members.
• A fragnance of a fresh rose bud and a novel for relaxing down.
• Listening to the exciting ideas of my kid to elope studies.
• My kid keeness towards cartoon slows.
• And the best moment is when my kid shares his time and feelings with me .
• Some devoted moments with "God"

But the definition of death we form in the society is yet related to "Selfishness" as per my perception.Often we find people crying and shouting for the demised. Can I raise a question? Why the person is crying!! He is crying because he would not be able to get the financial or emotional or pyschological support.He feels himself weak and alone.He cries for his support to ensure a win- win strategy. So at this instance we are as worst as animals who is selfish at every edge of life when it comes to materialistic world.

(This perception of mine applies to those section of people who build relationship for materialistic reasons. Actually I strongly believe in healthy relations, and I do genuinely respect their feeling and emotions.)

Trying to analyse a human being. The journey starts when a kid is born , he/she has no concern with the people arround, slowly and with developing state, he learns his surrounding people and is attracted towards people and things. He develops liking for his father, mother and other family members. Slowly and slowly, he goes to school and develops liking for school mates and other people whom he finds according to his tastes. Still at this stage, there is innocence in his character.This stage is the best where there is no jealously and mind and heart are clear ,they speak what they think, no conspiracy, no ill thoughts.....The growing stages gets affected by the people arround and the circumstances the kid is brought , it really influences alot and generates a personality trait of the child. Slowly and slowly he enters a professional life , where he cultivates the habit of speaking sweetly and gently to generate favourable conditions. But at some edge, slowly and slowly , at every effort to please others, he gets himself lost. He loses his identity.He just lives to satisfy others and live for others.

But a stage comes where he wishes to live according to his own choice , his wishes. He wishes to dress up, roam about, eat the things according to his 'own' choice. He tries to search his taste, his likings and dislikings. He tries to live for his own and the search for "me and ourselves" starts.

I try to find myself ........

In the fragnace of the flowers

In the stillness of silence

In the vagueness of the wind

In the fierceness of the fire

In the steepness of the mountains

In the chirping of the birds

In the whiteness of the clouds

In the brightness of the sun

In the calmness of the moon

In the perspective of the road

In the love of the mother

In the blessing of the 'Almighty'..

I pushed myself to successful moments
I truimped by achieving great heights
I relished every moment of success
But I did never realise the hidden support of the ladders built up to the top of the goal .

I faced hurdles with patience and courage
I conquered those hinderances and stepped ahead
I realised my victory against failures
But I did never realise the hidden support of the strength given to conquer them.

I became happy when I met the loved ones
I shared my happiness and enjoyed the moments with togetherness
I felt them to be my true ones
But I did never realise the hidden support of the joy given into the basket of the life .

I became sad when I was overtaken by my failures
I shared my sorrows , but alas
I did not had hands to wipe my tears
Then I did REALISE the hidden support of strong shoulders to take upon all the griefs .

The cherishing glow always makes me look forward into life
Though I hardly give you a dedicated minute
But your tender hands are always ready to help me out
I do boast upon having you near to me
I do feel proud to call you my 'Valentine'-'GOD'
With love, affection and dedication.

This faith flash backs me to a small story. Once upon a time, there was a big banayan tree, and a dog while on its way, came down under the tree and started sniffing. Later on, he excreted there and passed by. Later on, for a few days, the dog continued the same practice probably at the same spot. One day, a poor lady just sat upon at that place and started worshipping, simply because she felt so.Days followed by, bypassers slowly and slowly did join her and later on, a small temple was built up under the same banayan tree. So, it is simply the case that faith cannot be imposed. It could be just seeded into, it's all upon the man to ensure that the seed grooms into a big tree of faith.

So it is a vision of trust that builds up the faith.

Firstly , it would be too difficult to define 'good' or 'not good'. Every thing depends upon our perception of looking the things. There is no strict definition of good and it is impossible to classify our actions into 'good' and 'not good'. Even the murderer does not find bad in his act but it is the perception of the society that judges him 'not good' ?But what I have experienced in life is that every person is just good for himself, till and till his/her interests are being fulfilled.Just there is one exception to this relation that is the feeling/devotion of a mother for her child.What defines 'good' and 'not good' for me? Defining 'good' in life would be trying to take up the responsibilities expected from every relation, fulfilling every edge to the maximum possible effort I can give into. But obviously my 'good' does not define to put my self at worst state and still taking up the things. In that state, I would have to be 'not good'.

So, it would always be controversial to say 'good' or 'not good'. for if u always try to be good , u get totally dictated by being good and get involved in fulfilling others expectation and thus suppressing oneself to the extent of killing self identity and needs.

Fighting high and hard

For achieving peaks and attaining heights

For fulfilling ambitions and intentions

For storing some unvaluable currencies

Leaving behind precious relations

And confused at heart and soul

But still the thirst is on and on

To atain the 'Unachievable'.

आप आए जनाब बरसों मे,
हमने पी है शराब बरसों मे,

फिर से दिल की कली खिली अपनी,
फिर से देखा शबाब बरसों मे,

तुम कहाँ थे कहाँ रहे साहिब,
आज होगा हिसाब बरसों मे,

पहले नादाँ थे अब हुए दाना,
उनको आया आदाब बरसों मे,

इसी उम्मीद पे में जिंदा हूँ,
क्या वो देंगे जवाब बरसों मे,